1/29/2006
noone but me from URL @ 4:32 PM
i've decided not to delete that post.
cos i seem to be getting positive energy from it.
some way or another.
AHAHA!
anw, GO YOU ALL celebrating cny
come on, ALL THE WAY!
go, rake in the HUNDREDS of dollars.
remeber, im your very good friend! (:
i seem to be seriously deprived of a money-hood:
a conversation btwn me and yiying.
s:have you raked in LOADS of money yet?
y:ha ha more than 200 so far
y:not alot lahs
s:OHMYGOSH
s:laiYIYING
s:where can like that
s:NOT FAIR OK
s:SO MUCH
y:ha ha 200 condsidered lil arl
s:OH MANN
s:then whats a lot?
y:erms..more den 5- 6 hundred
YOU SEE! i dont get 5-6 hundred bucks within a few days!
grrr.
anw, money seems to have gotten me high.
but i still have my $300 cheque! (:
i might just use it and go for plastic surgery.
permanently remove my nose.
because it seems to be running too much.
might as well cut it off and let it run away.
-
AHAHAHAH!
OKAY. that was seriously dumb.
i don't know why i said that.
anw, good mood today.
cos i saw my church friends! (:
they make me smile!
im currently engaged in a battle with my nose.
cheer me on people! x)
i will win the war!
by wednesday of course.
-i cant be doing pumpings with -urghs- sliding down my nose.
ohoh! a random thought.
when you're sick, one's voice is described as constipated.
then so when you're in the pink of health?
your voice is described as what?
DIARRHOEA-ted??
AHAHAH!
ok. this is too much nonsense.
im just high. goodbye.
high me, shall fly away high high to the sky.
btw, any teacher or kiasu donkeys doing some spotchecks on blogs-
im not high cos im on drugs.
im just high. cos i drank red bull!
cos it gives you WINGS!
ahahhaa.
oh and that wasnt a comparison btwn teachers and kiasu donkeys.
teachers are nice!
most, esp those who give smiley faced stickers,
RIGHT chem rep??
1/28/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:39 PM
btw the prev post will be deleted by tml
cos my blog shall be one of those
-happyhappy ones.
ohso happyhappy :)(:
noone but me from URL @ 10:12 PM
i was talking to my aunty's friend today.
she seemed like she cared too much.
i asked what she worked as.
"oh, you didnt know? im a counsellor."
and she sucked.
she acted like she cared.
she tried to make me smile.
and so i smiled.
i said everything's alright, except that my dog needed a walk.
so i walked off. with my dog.
-im feeling pissed OFF.
oh so screwed up.
but im not gna blog abt it.
cos i've got my diary-
oh sure, i'll smile.
cos thats what everyone wants isn't it?
"come on, dont be sad lah, smile ok. everything will be alright."
and when you dont smile,
people say you attitude. or dao. or whatever.
seriously, whatever.
what ever.
read my face'
does it look like as though i give a shit?
1/27/2006
noone but me from URL @ 5:48 PM
and now, im sick.
i don't think im very sick,
but i feel very sick.
i hope i get better by parade.
or else jogging and c&c would be pure murder.
anw today i had fun, i guess.
we were so evil!
- WAR HERO!
okay. laughed like mad. and that just made my throat worse.
cos i wanted to laugh, but cldnt cos my throat just hurt.
and we saw- sgt shereen, sgt emilia[ yara pointed and shouted, "SGT SGT!" then sgt emilia faster put her finger to her mouth and said "SHH! SHH!" so cute!]
sgt raihanah- with two plaited ponytails, darn cute!
and hairin and fatima. why din bring someone with them?!
yup. ok. i dont feel like blogging already.
- sarah exeunts.
1/26/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:54 PM
parade 250106
em came back!(:
CHEERS! soo made my mood for then!
then pt, and c&c.
we gotta improve.
i rmbr promising staff those same few words last year.
"part Bs, what are you all going to do about it?"
"staff, give us another chance."
"i've given you all so many already! "
" staff, we'll do our best"
"are you sure or not?"
"yes staff, we will"
and now, in the year 2006, ic dhilshad..
"part Bs, are you all going to do your best?"
"yes ic!"
"what if you dont?"
" ic, we'll do our best."
-my words ring with emptyness.
they mean absolutely nothing.
like today,
IMT, 260106
ic rebekah asked,
"part Bs, how many marksmen are you all going to give me?"
nine of us put up our hands.
ya right.
sheesh.
seriously, they are like just words.
-monotonous syllabus pouring out of my mouth with no promise at all.
wtf.
anw, i was doing well till snap. passed canadian bull, got 8 for deliberate.
then my hand slipped, snap was gna start.
so i hurriedly adjust, focused, and when the target appeared, it was a yellow blur.
i got a shock, thinking whats happening. i just shot at it. 0. then i panic-ed i guess. but i continued to see yellow blurs. just continued shooting. got 6/12. pathetic.
"sarahj: last year, 4,3,5, 6. EIGHTEEN. this year, 4,4,3,3." fourteen.
SHITS.
at least, we got more marksmen! (:
well, LAADEEDAA.
i seek consolation from a particular fact.
and, goodbye.
tml will be a better day!
-what you perceive, is what is to be conceived.
its all in the mind.
mind over anything at all.
" COME ON MIND. ENDURE. ALMOST THERE. just many freaking more years to go."
OH, my throat hurts big time. BIG BIG TIME.
1/23/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:41 PM
midsummer night's dream: How now, my love? Why is your cheek so pale? How chance the roses there do fade so fast? i like! (: and yet, all these only exist in shakespeare's world of fantasies. never will they materialise. never, hear me; never. -all you suckers of love ahahaa, im feeling evil. E V I L. -Well, my parents didnt set a good example of love for me, did they? but that doesnt mean i dont love, nor that i dont believe in love. just in, AHAHAA, SWEET LOVE. HOHOO! ok this is a superduper random entry and will be deleted by tml, like the prev entry. thank you and JESSICA's BRILLIANT THORIUM POTASSIUM. BRILLIANCE! (:
1/20/2006
noone but me from URL @ 8:07 PM
ouch. discovered something not so pleasant. i feel like crying. i MISS MY DADDY.
1/17/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:23 PM
im listening to Cannon in D minor- classical guitar/harp! (:
it is soothing.
because im doing amaths, and though i cant get the answer, i seem to be at peace.
tralalalaa! (:
anw, tml there's parade!
the last one seemed so loooong ago, though just a week ago.
its FUN!
and i was just thinking in the shower.
when we were part As, we had to force each other to eat recess together.
-to actually spend time together.
and now, when we're partCs-to-be, we want to eat recess together.
want to hang out after school together.
want to do stuffs together.
we have fun together.
(: CHEERS!
bravo 05` WOOHOO!
1/16/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:44 PM
i know part of what that nagging fear of mine was;
it's now materialising.
the one fear of not being able to keep up.
im struggling. already.
in physics and in amaths.
i'll bet emaths too soon.
FREAKs. give us all the relief teachers.
wtf.
eng, emaths, amaths, unseen part of lit- ALL reliefs ok.
wth is their problem.
anway, i didnt like the feeling i had after school today.
not at all.
what a spoiler.
sheesh.
and problems seem to be starting already.
i can almost feel the lies.
the tension
the fake smiles.
the meaning behind the words-
i'll be there for you.
right suckers.
1/15/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:48 PM
anw, i get to exercise a lot this week! mon-jogging pt wed-parade thurs-jogging pt fri-pe woohoo!(: anw, i just realised that my brother is joining ncc so that he can lose weight. cos when i lost weight, he was apparantly-inspired. oh, i have three relief teachers. one for english, emaths and amaths. wtf. seriously. only left with physics, chem and lit to look forward to. and the school seems super dull without having anyone-in-particular to look out for. sheesh, how sad.
noone but me from URL @ 10:31 PM
tomorrow's a monday! (: im looking forward though i still feel rather detached. or maybe i still am. -apathetic or something. whatever anyways, i have come to the conclusion that my class will go far. all forty of us. 3 ignite! i have yet to know many people personally, but i will. soon. and from the people i already know, they are all nice! energetic and lively. but, i have a feeling it'll all die down. as everything gets tougher, more tiring and weary. like last year, people would enter the class, go straight to their desks and sleep. or desperately copy hw cos they were dead tired yest after cca. or just sit on the chair and stone. as it is, i've got tuition on mon,tues and thurs. maybe i should tell her that i only can afford twice a week. parade on wed, leaving me with only fri to take a break. not forgetting, one day for cip, one and/or more for co night and many to study. sheesh. i feel tired just thinking of it all. how. and i still have that nagging fear at my heart. -the same one of forebording. i still fear. i don't know what, for whom or when, but i do. and it's scary like a time bomb- tick tick tick.
1/12/2006
noone but me from URL @ 10:33 PM
tomorrow is friday the thirteenth.
it wasn't a good omen last year,
and it brought great anger, hurt and tears.
i should bring a paper bag, cut two wholes in it, and put it on my head.
that way, no one can see my haircut.
and i'll speak nor see no evil.
but then! i might just step on dog poo or something, which is just as bad.
or bang into a pillar
[like nish]
sheesh.
i shall blog abt the whole of last week by sunday.
for now, goodnight.
i pray that all those who are sick and injured,
that they get well soon.
its not a very nice feeling when everyone around you is hurt-
its saddening.
take care natalie, patricia, yiying, nurin and everyone else.
and kathleen, you did talk a lot.
but i thought you were talking to me, so thank you!
and yiying, thanks for yelling out encouragements! it was a big deal you know.
viky too! (:
1/09/2006
noone but me from URL @ 8:46 PM
(ok heck, there are supposed to be spaces btwn the stanzas, but they're just not appearing.)
why i'll sing a song
and i'll sing it out loud.
oh hear my voice,
my dear guardian angel.
the winds are lashing;
thunders aroar.
the skies are black,
and the earth is wet.
my days are dark, cold and dreary.
my heart is old, cold and weary.
as i look to the sky,
the moist dew upon my face.
there is a tugging at my heart,
why, that of foreboding.
oh, my days are dark, cold and dreary.
my heart is old, cold and weary.
i clasp my numbed hands together,
i bow my head in a reverential manner.
the words from my heart,
upon my lips,
oh listen dear one,
to my empty song.
but i do know, that
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining; and into each life some rain must fall. -apathetic i am.
1/07/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:54 PM
i would like to blog about one thing, and comment upon the other.
firstly-
the edusave award thing.
so i went there, my number was 0289.
and they started from number ONE.
and mine was TWOHUNDREDANDEIGHTYNINE.
gosh. so i was sitting there for about 50 mins b4 my turn.
anw, the person presenting the award was assoc prof Ho Peng Kee.
senior minister of state( home affairs and law)
hahaa, honoured.
anw my mom was saying its probably cos the elections are nearing.
hoho!
secondly-
about irritating people who call up saying they'd like to view the house.
and so my mom drags me out of bed at 9, telling me to start cleaning cos my maid was still sick.
sheesh. ok
so i swept, mopped, arranged stuff, fixed stuff; finished evrythg, showered, ate lunch and waited for them to arrive.
130 came and went and they never came.
i was super pissed ok.
irritating.
whats the point of calling if YOU'RE NOT COMING.
irritating pigs.
and so to you all, when you become adults and are planning to invest in a house;
when you call and tell the owners that you would like to take a look at the house, unless due to severe circumstances, please DO TURN UP.
otherwise dont even bother calling.
thank you.
-and i havent updated about my class. i'll give it a week. wna know them much better first before passing any comments. but for now i think 3i 06' seems like one of the nicer classes. *with so much more life.
1/05/2006
noone but me from URL @ 6:38 PM
hellohello.
i am craving for EXERCISE.
for all those people out there thinking that i'm mad, im so not.
i want ok. really.
no, i NEED.
i want to feel the heat rising from my skin.
my lungs squeezing for desperate oxygen
the dull thud in my chest.
i want to feel my face hot;
the sweat dripping from my nose;
forming my own lil' puddle.
and drops, rolling down my back.
HAHA. i cant believe i actually said that.
its actually a disgusting feeling, but i so WANT TO EXERCISE.
really really want to-
come on PTs! PARADES! JOGGINGS!
anw, i think im out of taf. but if im out, im gna ask ms ng to let me back in.
i think taf does me more good than jogging.
Jogging is so slack.
1/04/2006
noone but me from URL @ 7:14 PM
a supershort post, dedicated to a one example of superoverpowering fate.
( if overpowering is the word to use)
and so, there was this day suria and i were talking on the phone;
about LTC.
and so we were just talking abt what department she wanted to go to.
nope, it wasn't kitchen, but the topic did come up because of a particular someone.
it was like, IF she were to go there, it'd be;
a SOMEONE staffweili------ to another----- SOMEONE ic dhilshad ----to----- SURIA.
which would be like super sonically fated.
and so we were saying
" haha, cannot be. or else its just tooo freaky"." too meant to be"
and ola~
the day comes when the instructors are chosen.
and WHAT DO WE DISCOVER.
suria DOES become kitchen understudy.
-BIGGRIN x)
which is like what i said, oh-so-fated; oh-so-supersonically-fated.
HA HA. its so fated, that it is rather amusing.
lol.
prediction of future kitchen understudy- someone who crazes suria.
LOL
anyway, i am seriously proud of my platoonmates. they did it(:
kath, suria, cheryl,[campcrafts understudy!), adlin, fad, sunm and nish.
CHEERS!(:
except for yara. she's super standard, super pro. but her results i guess.
nvmm, she would have learnt that studies do matter too; just the hard way i guess.
at least, she knows, i know, EVERYONE knows, that yara could have made it.
WOULD have made it. and would have rocked at it.
yay for us. the PART Bs.
1/03/2006
noone but me from URL @ 9:23 PM
hellohello
since i've got the internet back, im blogging again.
TWICE a day.
hahaa, anw now its cos im HIGH.
WOOHOO! CHEERS everyone!(:
anyway, more abt the new yr, new day blah.
ma'am koh's my form teacher- she's nice!
mrs chia- co form teacher and amaths teacher.
- not bad i think.
mrs loy[or sth]- ss geog
-started with the class on a wrong note. shant say
ms tan[ uni]- eng
- i don't know abt her yet. we played a game! (:
oh ex cedarian, frm 3/4s, combined.
i guess my teachers and all are nice; as for the rest, i'll say after their lessons.
if you ask me what i've learnt from life- i'd say--
what anything is, is actually your perspective. (ok, not well phrased, yesyes.)
its mind over anything at all. and noone, i repeat, NOONE can argue with me on this.
i've got a nice class, frens, my dear pltnmates, everythings looking good, and so- this year's gna be good.
CHEERS AGAIN! (:
but yet, there's this nagging feeling at my heart.
like something just nibbling away at the corners of my heart.
paranoia. worry. anxiousness - whatever.
i cant put a word to it.
i don't know what i fear.
its just that feeling again, and its many many days/weeks/months too fast.
i fear.
i fear
but oh heck, im still good!
cheers! some people just came online!(:
noone but me from URL @ 4:44 PM
hello, hello
a new year resolution that applies here.
- im gna cut down my use of singlish.
and i mean it.
(: cheers.
my class's not too bad..
but i think the lit stream portion of my class is the LIFE OF 3i 05'.
seriously-
ok, lab closing.
goodbye
i miss the computer
goodbye.
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